Wednesday, January 22, 2014

daily bread

I like listening to jazz or r&b when I cook.  I've had food on my mind this month.  

It was a regular weeknight, when we didn't send the kids to bed at their usual bedtime, instead we waited together for a pan of blueberry crisp to come out of the oven.  Then at 10 pm I lined up 5 plates, dished up the warm goodness, and scooped vanilla bean ice cream on top.  As we sat around the table, all unanimously voting we liked the crisp, it hit me- this is a happy moment.  

I was so happy and it was more meaningful because this winter has also had its low moments.  That hit me too. When we went to the movie Frozen, as a family, and I cried so hard I left with a headache.  Mostly because I was trying to stop myself from being the slobbering mess I was.  Wow, I guess I needed a good cry.  Sheesh.  

Someone I love told me, sometimes it doesn't matter how we feel we just need to do what we know we should. I will cook.  

In neediness, I want to make soup.  Soup and more soup.  I made chicken chili until I thought I better lay off the recipe or we'd be chicken chili'd out for good.  Pumpkin soup, minestrone, lentil soup.  Soup because it's winter and we're cold.  Soup because I'm sad and soup is comforting.  Soup because it's healthy and nourishes us.  I want to feed and nurture. 

This month, I felt God whispering to my heart the reminder that I need daily bread.  He'll give it to me on a day-by-day basis and I need to come back again tomorrow.  

I'm thankful for tomorrows, for daily bread, the opportunity to cook and invite people to come to my table.  

I'm hungry.  Tomorrow's dinner menu is chicken curry.  





2 comments:

Farm-Raised said...

how absolutely beautiful. i'm sorry you've been sad. i'm glad god is showing up in those moments. hugs!

Michelle Renee said...

Like me Kate, God shows up in the small, unexpected moments. Always a whisper that's like a knock on the head. Feelings can't always be trusted, and just doing what He says anyway is good advice. But, I've discovered that feelings cannot be denied and shouldn't be ignored, and it's often during those times that God knocks me on the head. So I've been learning to allow myself to feel- and let God work through them to heal and sooth me...and allow those things (like cooking in your case!) to be part of His way of loving on me. Love you sista.

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